Disrupt reality to step through to the other side.

I’ve been out and low for quite a while now. It’s been quite a roller coaster since my last post. There have been some ups and a whole lotta downs. But something’s different about whats goin on in my head today. It’s the onset of an unrelenting urge to disrupt my reality- disrupt whatever I thought I was capable of- and to begin to push my limits. To get out of my comfort zone and begin action and realize everything I wish for. In the 24 yrs I’ve spent here, I’ve felt this way only twice before…….so profound are their existence in my past- that I and my life are a function of it. I guess its evolution….its like a snake sheds its skin….it is the same snake….. but, in some way …it’ll never be the same again.

The song “46 and 2” by “Tool” says it all for me…….

"My shadow's

Shedding skin and
I've been picking
Scabs again.
I'm down
Digging through
My old muscles
Looking for a clue.

I've been crawling on my belly
Clearing out what could've been.
I've been wallowing in my own confused
And insecure delusions
For a piece to cross me over
Or a word to guide me in.
I wanna feel the changes coming down.
I wanna know what I've been hiding in

My shadow.
Change is coming through my shadow.
My shadow's shedding skin
I've been picking
My scabs again.

I've been crawling on my belly
Clearing out what could've been.
I've been wallowing in my own chaotic
And insecure delusions.

I wanna feel the change consume me,
Feel the outside turning in.
I wanna feel the metamorphosis and
Cleansing I've endured within

My shadow
Change is coming.
Now is my time.
Listen to my muscle memory.
Contemplate what I've been clinging to.
Forty-six and two ahead of me.

I choose to live and to
Grow, take and give and to
Move, learn and love and to
Cry, kill and die and to
Be paranoid and to
Lie, hate and fear and to
Do what it takes to move through.

I choose to live and to
Lie, kill and give and to
Die, learn and love and to
Do what it takes to step through.

See my shadow changing,
Stretching up and over me.
Soften this old armor.
Hoping I can clear the way
By stepping through my shadow,
Coming out the other side.
Step into the shadow.
Forty six and two are just ahead of me."

Hushh...

I present to you my latest film- "Hushh......."

Couldn't have done this without Guru, Emme and Tilak sir- Thanks a bunch people.



Hope this gets you thinking......

Thinkick!

It's been a month since my last post.....a Crazy Crazy Month!!! Loads of work at the studio and to top it off, 15th April was the last day to turn in my portfolio and application form for the Inlaks-Fabrica scholarship!....yes scholarship......i applied for a scholarship (that sounds so weird).

Till about 11pm on the 4th of april, i was quite confidant about my portfolio. 11.15 pm the same night, that feeling felt like taking a walk and decided i wasn't worth it, and never came back. So i was sitting there staring at a dozen sketches that were so bad...i wanted to believe that i had nothing to do with em. That's all i had some crappy sketches and my first film "Rajan goes to school". I had to have something more on my portfolio......something respectable if not spectacular.

I called up Guru (the musicman)- and told him- "send me any new music you got.......i have gotta kick up an idea!". He sent me 9 tracks. Musicman's got an amazing sense of music- one of his tracks managed to kick up a thought- Mini Symphony 9 was the name (u suck at naming your songs dude!!). Well one idea lead to another....and another....and another.....and i then i knew what had to be done.

7 days of crappy hold ups- 5 consecutive nights at the studio void of sleep- 78 cups of coffee- 3 packs of cigarettes later- i had something i'd like to call a film.

i'm bored of typing now.......


Here are some stills from the film







Kaisa laga?

Old stuff

I was cleaning out all the crap from my studio PC when i stumbled upon a long lost folder......i found a whole lotta scans i'd done of my sketch book some 6 months ago. It's good fun when u stumble upon some of yer old art work. There's something fresh about the way you look at it. All the mistakes jump right up at you and the good designs seem better and manage to trigger new thoughts and ideas. Its like looking at photographs of youself when you were a kid.......you can actually feel the evolution......which for me is a good feeling......reminds me that i'm not static......but moving forward....slow and steady.

Heres one sketch that i did at the ferry station on Hong Kong Island........I love chinki chiks......i love drawing em even more.......maybe it's the hair....i dunno.....this chick was real cute...she cldn't get her eyes off her PSP!

Warrior named MUNGA!

Ola!......it's been a while since my last post......things have been real crazy at the studio...loads of work..."Happy problems" as the say here at my studio.



I've been working on some concept art for my next cartoon film. Haven't really got the time to complete most of it. For now meet the lead man of my next cartoon film---MUNGA the nappy warrior!



Please do let me know what you think...... always open to constructive criticism....

Peek-a-Boo!!


Have just started trying my hand with a wacom pad-- n I'm loving it!!!!

This wacom thing sure is kickass!!

Insignificant

Every once in a while i manage to get into this comfy spot with respect to the knowledge i've gained over the past years in the field of animation and film making. That feeling of "Wow!...i know so much......i'm so good at this......i feel like god!". Fortunately for me, more often then not some hot-shot comes around and shoots my notions down with a double barrel shot to the head!!......BAM!

This time around the Hot-Shot is a man who goes by the name of Amitabh Singh. Ace Live-Action Camera man turned Cinematographer. I don't know much about him, i don't think anyone does. That's the kind of man he is...Extreme introvert....low profile.....soft-spoken......relentlessly dedicated to his work--Brilliant beyond imagination.

The studio i work with hired his services as a cinematographer on one of our bigger 3d animation projects. I've learnt so much from him over the past week about composition, lensing, dramatic impact and more.

I've got some notes i made on the stuff he talked about and explained to lesser mortals like me.....I'll be putting em up as soon as he's done with his sessions at the studio.....i'll be able to connect the gyaan (information) much better then.

For now here's a sketch i did of him